I\'m defeated,
my face scratched out of pictures,
you lovingly took of me.
my eyes a glaze,
with sorrow and temptation.
because every ounce I take of you,
I want a mouthfull more.
I watch as my honest thoughts,
are bargained for decietful lies.
here is the smoke of depression,
you blow into my air passage.
I wanted your beauty,
I grasped it and held it till it bled.
because if I can\'t have your loyalty,
I\'ll steal everything you own.
you looked up and took apart my heart,
until I screamed your name.
I had your body in the passionate moments,
that you couldn\'t resist my touch.
what\'s there to regret?
you took it all back.
I told you I\'m broken and slipping away,
from any sanity I can weather.
you smiled and pushed me under,
the weight of the world.
this burden on my shoulders,
I wanted your cruel touch to tease me.
taunt me,
flaunt me.
anyway you want me.
cause I was held in your safe keeping of pain,
until the storms blew us away.
you fed the masochist in me,
oh baby I loved you when you hurt me that way.
I hated myself,
so I needed you,
to make me ashamed.
of what I tasted in your skin,
what I thought.
who I am to you,
I wanted the pain.
and just for a moment,
you were mine.
just for a moment,
you admitted you needed me too.
the fucked up world had turned right,
until you turned it again.
so now I say this with a hardly tearful thought,
that I\'ll indulge in as many things and people,
until you drown out of my system.
while your eyes start to wander back to my skin.